My mood and mind are haywire.
My mind's blank and empty.
My mood is fxcking unstable and I'm fxcking moodless and stressed up.
Everything is so screwed up for me.
It doesn't seems to go the way I wanted/thought it would be.
I feel like a total weakling now.
I'm afraid of this and that happening.
If it really happens, what am I supposed to do?
Will I be strong enough to cope and face whatever that is going to happen in the future?
I've lost confidence in myself.
I feel so empty, just so empty and blank.
I don't want to be like this anymore, not anymore.
I feel like crying and screaming my heart out.
I'm so frustrated and disappointed in myself.
I know I can't go on like this but how do I get out of it?
I must buck up and be strong but can I do it? Sighs, I hope so.
I don't wanna disappoint others and myself anymore, never.
The first 2-3 tests of term 3 have already pulled me down.
It made me utterly disappointed in myself.
If the first few test had already pulled me down, how am I supposed to cope with the rest of it?
This is only the beginning, and I'm already all so stressed and screwed up. Sighs.
I. Must. Really. Start. Bucking. Up. On. Studies. And. Others.
Must. Be. Strong. And. Work. Towards. It. All. The. Way.
It's alright if you fall, what matter is that you pick yourself up and continue working towards it.
Do. Not. Give. Up.
Failures are the key to success.
C'mon Regine! You can do it! :')
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P/S to Kelly:
Whatever you've told me last night while I was revising, I don't believe it.
After you've told me about it, I totally couldn't concentrate and focus in revising..
How could it be possible to happen?
Tell me, you're joking, you're lying.
I can't believe that such a thing will happen.
Please, tell me that you're joking and lying.
It is not like this. It was meant to be a prank, right?
What you've said had already made me cry.
I cried on the phone with Andy. ): Yes, I fxcking cried when you didn't want me to.
I know you don't want me to worry/cry but I just can't help it..
Although I am not very close to you, but you're definitely a nice person.
No, Kelly, noo. This can't be happening..